canzonetta's alive

Meet canzonetta.Not much reason why you should.But sometimes we all do things maybe to necessarily defy reason.count this as one such random venture.So yes gettin back to my primal intention(i deviate a lot you see!)Canzonetta is.....a thought...a lie...a shield...a smile..a lingering solitude.Canzonetta is green and a girl.difficult! yet she breaths..

I don't know where she lives...don't know where she is from...where is she headed???Never asked her.it seldome bothers me coz whenever i wish to talk to her she has a strange way of appearing out of nowhere..

How long do i know her??? ummmmm..my memory fails me here...A long time...or is it that its jus this moment??

Is Canzonetta my friend? perhaps not.Yes she has given me a vision,she has given me light,she has given me the ardour to live,she has comforted me.saved me........Do i hear someone whispering "then why do you refuse to call her your friend you ungrateful fool?"oh yes she has given me all that..but she has given me questions and more questions..and know what?Each time i strive i fail to get answers.But that cold cruel girl deserts me jus there...i beg ..i plead..But still no answers..She loves to see me fumble..broken..ohh how many more times!!!

I know she seeks vengeance coz she is a nobody withiut me.she exista coz i do.she would have remained a loser..trapped under layers of emptyness...screaming..i gave her the voice..i gave her life..she needs me!

And i want her to need me..bcoz that need wud eventually lead me to those answers i have been searching all my life.perhaps her existence is in it's entireity a journey into 'myself'.So beginning from this moment Canzonetta gets to meet the world.I give her the world...